He kept kissing my skin
caressing my body with a feather
holding flowers in front of my nose
whispering magical words into my ear
And all of this while I was blindfolded.
My body was shaking
i was groaning full of lust
orgasmic energy was flushing through literally every cell of my body
he kept going
he kept awakening my senses
licking my left arm
singing into my right ear
allowing my nose to smell his fingers which were covered in rose oil
in a moment of full surprise he was taking off my blindfold
so that he could awake my eyes
his body moving in ways I’ve never seen him dance before
my body kept shaking
he had stopped touching my body a while ago
but my body kept going
not knowing where left or right was
where I was or what I was doing
and then, totally unexpected, he’d come next to my ear and said
your body is purely orgasmic
Now, let me share with you the background of this story.
I’ve always somehow believed that I need someone else to awaken my sexual energy
that my orgasmic state is dependent on external factors
And in that very tantric ritual at one of the trainings I’ve attended, I was paired with a man that I did not feel attracted to. Not physically, nor energetically and neither intellectually.
And I’ve felt and had the honor to witness that I am solely responsible for my sexual energy and my own orgasmic state of being. It’s me who can make the conscious choice to love my body and to surrender into pleasure.
To all the humans out there: You are the only one out there being responsible for your energetic state of being. YOU. No other factor.